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Of course me… I get bored very easily sometimes soon when I do..I usually get on FaceBook (because I have no life =D) and I look back on past experiences like old photos, comments….etc. So couple nights ago I ran into a super old “note” I wrote about myself. Its was quite sad…I couldn’t recognize who it was. I know for a fact I wrote it…it was super depressing. Jeez am I that sad all the time? hmmm….. Anyway, after reading that I can definitely see that I so called “fixed” some of the problems I had about myself.

Here is the original note

For such a opinionated person I’m super softspoken but in a bad way sometimes. Mostly I’m like this because I don’t want to start things between me and the person(s) but it is gotten to a point that I’m that I’m plain out being pushed around.IDK maybe I’m too nice and I try not to be a bitch but sometimes people say things about me and seriously it hurt but I do nothing…..why? I really don’t know why and I hate it. I can take a lot trust I have been getting a lot of crap from people all my life like how I’m a suppose “poser”,not sporty,…..the list goes on and on. Also I’m also too shy to do anything not even to hint that I like someone (can’t say who) and really it’s sad and the worst part I’m pity myself. Yeah I can be outspoken about stupid stuff like decor,haunted mansion history…..but to something important like how I dress,talk…..I’m just don’t do anything but thankfully I have supportive friends so they help a lot and I’m super happy about that but I know there not always there so how to I help myself. I guess that I don’t say anything because I’m shocked that they insult me because usually I don’t insult anyone unless it is completely necessary and that is like NEVER. And maybe I grew up just being nice and softspoken and taught to just take it and don’t let is bother you but they only problem IT DOES bother me. IDK I can be crazy outspoken but it has to be when I’m super mad and that is never soo…… But this does help me because people tend to talk to me easier because I’m so nice.I’m not saying being nice is bad but I just need some help on being a little more protective of myself. I don’t want to be super crazy mean and opinionated and scare away people so yeah…..

Did you read it?…..  Jeez I’m was a dumb person EL OH EL. hehehe But I definitely a changed person. I guess for the rough patches in my life soo far really made me grow up even if I didn’t want to. From my personal experience, Yes! we all don’t ever want to grow up but if you sometimes learn things a little too late it’s too late to fix and mend them back together. So at the end you have to grow up to some extent.  Back on track… Yes I’m the still the same soft-spoken person that just does whatever to make others happy (which I love to do) but the one thing that has change that I learned how to defend myself from verbal abuse. Trust me, from where I come from there is much hatred around me but the even it out there is more love I surround myself. Of course in return I try my best to treat all the people that help me like my best friends.  Yet not at every moment in my life there is someone to back me up so I forced to learn to “man up” and basically don’t let things bother me. And really things don’t….I’m really happy with it. I just think “well sorry I can’t help you better yourself so why should I let you push me down.”

On a more scary note! EVERY SHOULD KNOW BY NOW BUT…….. DEL TORO is making a REBOOT Haunted Mansion MOVIE!!! All Haunted Mansion fanatics need to make a pilgrimage to the attraction ASAP! hahaha But yes, everyone is filamiliar with the other Haunted Mansion Movie with Eddy Murphy. Visually the set was BEAUTIFUL and full 5 stars for that but the story itself…eeehhhh 1/2 star for me. Not hating on the Murphy but I personally think that the Haunted Mansion is not a very fitting place for a family comedy……. So I quote from Del Toro that he is making it scarier yet still funny. So….I have high hopes for this movie because I’m a absolute fan of the HM.