Have I Frighten You Away?
Naturally I try my hardest to help out and I do try to make people around me happy but has it gotten to a point that I help too much and I’m not getting the same amount of love back? I know that might sound selfish but really….I tend to do random acts of kindness without thinking….maybe I’m just too soft and devoted to people around me. Isn’t that the point of strong relationships with others? Being devoted??? Well no one thinks exactly the same so I guess some people don’t really realize what I’m trying to convey to them so they just take it as a complement. ORR…. even better I over think things! 😀 I’m known to do that..but when do I know when should and shouldn’t over think things. Certain things seem deeper then others…. My point of view is wack! 😛
Hmmm….maybe my conclusion is that my over devotion to one person might actually scare people away with the weight that comes with an overly loving person. Yet…I can be very blunt and down right mean. My thought process is that if you do something to break the implied trust I will never fully trust you again unless you make it up to me. Harsh? Well life is pretty harsh so why shouldn’t I be. Even in the Buddhist religion, no matter how peaceful it is there are harsh punishments for “sins.” But the different is that punishment is meant for you to learn what you did wrong and correct it…unlike me…where I’m just either I trust you or not..with some exceptions.